sigil time

this is what happens when i get bored
and enter into trance states. or
just get bored in general. why?
thats a good question. no one really
knows. when im asleep i kinda get it,
but then it fades away when i wake up.

but if you look closely enough
at the picture something in
your own head might snap and
you might just end up understanding
dav a bit better. either that or
you'll get distracted by the colors.

XP

vibe! or not

the vibe lounge is like a cave. that or
an underground temple to the muses.
either way its one of my favorite
places to loose myself on a friday night.
just, not alone.

me and some friends were gonna
go to a battle of the bands at
vibe on sunday but they switched
it to today at some venue in oceanside.

dav, never actually paying attention, got
that it was tonight but went to the vibe
lounge instead. so im standing in the
corner of a room filled with a bunch of
scene kids, really wanting to mosh but
feeling weird because I knew absolutely
no one there.

after talking with my friend
and finding out where they were
i decided to stay for a while anyway since
the bands playing were kinda awesome.

i still ended up leaving early though. vibes
a weird place to be alone, even if i do love
the couches there. its like their trying
to eat me from how comfortable they
are.

i really should go to sleep but every time
I close my eyes music starts playing in my head.
ehhh... oh well

vorarephilia.... yumm?

cannibalism has a dark and disturbing
side to it. who would have thought!
yum.

for AP homework we had to pick a topic,
find documents and
build an essay question around it. so
of course, i picked cannibalism.
[she did say pick something close to your heart]

so after "extensive" research i learned
something new about myself.
1. eating fetuses for breakfast everyday is
probably NOT the best thing to do.
i cant believe some people in china
actually do that.
eghhhh shudders**

and

2. vorarephilia slightly intrigues me.
not that im a vore at all, its actually
kinda distrubing, its just that its
the weirdest thing ive ever heard of.
vore is like kinky cannibal sex.
who does that?

to each his own i guess, but thats where i draw the line.

the condemned first

its been a hectic month, and now the one week i had to
relax is almost gone, and ive done absolutely nothing.
shame on me.
i love it.

so, anyway, theres been so much chaos going on around
me lately. usually chaos is my lover, hail Eris! and all,
but now i kinda feel like theres a bunch of monsters just
rampaging through my head. countless hours of
meditation and all i get are monster things.
haha

ok, so since it is my first post:
im dav and im insane, theres no
way around that. it makes life more
fun. im slightly vampyric
[haha slightly]
and i confuse dreams with reality all the time.
just because you might think im
awake doesn't mean i really am.

but back to "reality"
[im an existentialist btw]
uhhhmm....
the rents and i are planning on
getting a new house, hopefully
we'll stay in freeport or some other
town close by.
so between that and keeping myself
inside my body its been intense.
oh, and the play and school and friends.

i need to write more too, i havent
written any poetry since the begining of
the month, i think.

but chaos still flows.