i've made up my mind

now i just hope she feels the
same way about me.
waiting drives me insane-
being stuck between will
she say yes or not. aghhh

i think i've made the right
choice... as confusing as it
was.

the strangest dreams have
been plaguing me lately.
two nights ago a snake
covered in eyes slithered
into my dream. it wouldn't
let me grab it though because
apparently being touched
hurt it.

nd then last night i dreamed
about a huge owl, frog-like
amphibians and especially
tons of snakes. there was this
huge feathered and horned
snake surrounded by cobras
of all sizes. there was even a
mini cobra sitting on top of it.

choosing between girls
and not knowing whats
gonna end up happening
has thrown me into sexual
anxiety. at least i think
thats what it is. grrrr

i wonder if the goddess
is trying to tell me something
through all of this too.

we'll see what ends up happening.
i cant stand the wait.